VISION

This is one of my daughters. She has a pretty uncanny knack sometimes of seeing things with perfect clarity; much more than others. On this particular day, she was checking out traffic with her homemade binoculars.

What do you see, bubby boo?

A cherry red Ferrari. Like the one I’m going to have when I am old.

Really. Well, I…I guess that would be nice if that could happen, honey.

Binoculars go down. She blinks and turns her head slightly. Will happen, mama. Will. Don’t you know that?

I don’t know things the way she does. I hope for, I pray for, I work for, I do many verbs to try to know things, but really I don’t know much at all. The hows and whys of things perpetually escape me; most of them centered around human behavior. There isn’t a day that passes that I don’t wonder why on earth someone would do – or not do – something. Often times I ask myself that with a very hurt heart.

I’m going to try my daughters approach for just a day and see what happens.

I’m just going to know that it will be ok, that it will be good. I’d better learn how to drive a stick shift; I think that’s the only way one should drive a cherry red Ferrari.

book

i've written a book. i didn't write it because i think that my thoughts are super-fantastico and no one could scare live without them; quite the contrary. i think that sometimes life presents itself to me in a manner such that i am obligated to share. it's title is 'in a word' because i am a girl of few and enjoy the simplicity of said words. each title is just a single word and the little missives that come forth are really just observations of the world; my world as well as others. http://www.cph.org/p-18459-in-a-word.aspx?SearchTerm=heidi%20floyd

faith

tied so closely to hope, isn't it? faith that we are doing the right thing and not just convincing ourselves that it's right. faith that the circumstances won't repeat themselves in the same way they did last time. faith that things have somehow changed...for the better. faith seems stronger, somehow. faith as a verb, hope as a noun. action partnered with interaction; we aren't just sitting about on cushions hoping for something. we've done, seen, created something that will effect a change. faith is an action, not an observation. neither one can be smashed, if you are the right kind of soul. if you are the kind of person who continues to issue edicts to that pithy old hope, if you think that faith can push hope over into the 'win' column. i have hope that my tomorrow will be a good day. my faith tells me that i've been given the chance to make it so.